Radiating

This is the one where I just tell you about my day so far… It’s how I live and how Leenie Brain and Leenie Heart work… It’s how I got here… how I got to this post… how I got to being all-zen-and-shit… how I got to another place to pivot…

Related pics for this post are on Instagram.

I feel guided to just show you what works for me, lead by example instead of telling you what to do. Be a leader, not a boss. I really don’t know what works for you. Only you do. If any of the bits and pieces work for you, great! If they lead you to another avenue, great! All I ask you to do is “To thine own self be true.”

May this peek at my day help you on your journey even if only to feel better today… right now… this moment that you’re making time to share with me. Thank you for being here.

Three cups of coffee and enough wasted-not-wasted time on social media this morning, noon arrived, but I didn’t kick myself too much because I had a first serving of guidance through Amanda (Feeling Herd Healing). In her Feeling Herd group, she shared today’s cards/messages:

• “The universe works fast when I’m having fun.”
• Ace of Autumn. “A windfall of money, advice, or assistance from others. A very successful project. A happy change in your career.”
• King of Spring. “Innovative. Inspiring. Wise. Theatrical. A financial windfall. Your leadership skills are needed now. An unexpected supporter of your cause.”

Amanda’s interpretation of the cards flows perfectly aligned with where my posts have been leading, and I felt the connection. [Note: She’s the one who introduced me to Radleigh Valentine’s Fairy Tarot in my first reading with her. I asked for general guidance, which delivered: Seven of Autumn. “Have patience and don’t worry! Take time to rest and plan your next steps. A prudent investment of time or money.” And I still remember the spirit guidance she felt and communicated to me – it felt like I had been chasing instead of allowing. I don’t know why I didn’t trust my intuition, but I am grateful to Amanda for sharing her gift, so that I received the support I needed to trust what I was already receiving intuitively. ]

Thanks to Amanda and the fairies, I heard the message speaking directly to me:

• “What sparks joy within me, and how can I cultivate that to make a livelihood on it? For most of our lives we’ve been taught that a job is about having a stereotypical stable career, but what about the job we have on earth given to ya by our higher power? What if we were able to develop a means of financial stability through doing what feels right within our soul AND allows us to have fun at the same time?!”
• “My challenge today to you is to list all the things that bring you joy (don’t include people, list the experiences, moments, feelings, etc.) and start crafting “how can I have more fun with my life and share that with others?”.

This brought to mind Rebecca Campbell’s Light is the New Black and her Work Your Light oracle cards, specifically the confirmation card: “You’re Already Doing It. Stop overthinking. Keep facing your true north.”

True north. Like the feather I found on Easter morning. Pointing north.

So because of the nudge from my memory that I’m already doing it, I skipped Amanda’s challenge and went about my day. I followed the guidance we received from Amanda’s cards and set my space. I felt called to bring my citrine, snowflake obsidian, hypersthene, pyrite, and tiger’s eye closer to me.

While I shuffled my fairy deck, I asked, “What guidance do I need to start receiving money?” If I’m already doing it, if I’ve BEEN doing it all of my life naturally and easily, and in line with Amanda’s question, “What sparks joy within me, and how can I cultivate that to make a livelihood on it?”

A couple of months ago, Christie Bailey started a new group, Rise from the Heart with Christie Bailey. Even though her newest program wasn’t for me, I gained a lot from being in a group that keeps lifting each other and trying to help each other succeed. I am grateful that Christie answered her call to be a leader because through her group, I met several women whose strengths have been helping me since then, and their light has illuminated further down my path so that I can keep moving forward. For me. For you.

Bonnie who leads In Your Flow was an instant connection even though I didn’t know why at the time. She and I have chatted about manifesting, but her guidance that has taken things a step further is our attitude about money. We have to believe that we deserve to receive money at the price we set for the work we do. I’m going to stop here because this is Bonnie’s area, and I want you to “meet” her and follow her and let her help you too. Combining it with Amanda’s guidance this morning, as well as Lauren Matera’s podcast, Front Row Worthy, particularly when we align instead of hustle, we can “make a living” doing that which brings us joy; therefore, we bring others joy and shine together!

I shuffled and focused on my inquiry and stopped when a group of cards fell out of the deck. They landed face up, and the first one staring at me was The Star. Usually one or two cards may pop out, but when I picked them up and counted five, I immediately understood that I should apply the morning ritual spread to help me interpret the guidance for today. (See post on Instagram for the spread and its cards.)

Crystals and cards aren’t for everyone. They’re just tools that resonate with me, so that I can get focused. I have past posts in this blog where I talk about all that has happened for me since my mom died… 2019 brought me into various times of aligning, ascending, growing, and learning. I faced the biggest and most liberating challenge – trust and faith.

Yesterday in Plan Anyway! I mentioned: “I find myself having regular “trust falls” with the universe, and each one not only builds my trust but also elevates me to a new level of clarity.” I seek guidance through meditation and cards, I let messages come to me, I allow nudges to speak to me, I do release rituals with the full moon, I set intentions in rituals with the new moon… and I trust. I trust myself to trust a divine source. And it hasn’t failed me. It has supported me. In quitting my job last summer, in taking care of my family, in counseling my friends, in being a light, in sharing humor, in spreading joy, in raising the vibration… in being me.

Who am I? What am I? I realized that I never fit into the predefined titles and roles at work and in life because I’m me. My calling has always been to bring myself to whatever I do. Take away my corporate roles – writer, editor, communications manager, project analyst. Take away my society roles – mother, daughter, sister, friend… I am me.

What do I do? I can make you laugh, think, or cry. I can give you a hell of a day if you want it. (see also Jimmy V or this link for the whole speech) Through all of it, I share humor, kindness, light, love, and compassion. When needed, I plant the seeds.

Why do I do it? I find it easy to be all-zen-and-shit and I want others to find peace in their day so they can string more and more of those moments together to have a peaceful life. We can’t ignore or run from adversity or challenges, but we can choose how to react. We can choose to love instead of choosing to fear. (By the way, if love versus fear also brings Donnie Darko to your mind, click here.)

I choose love in accepting that getting here has been divinely orchestrated. I was tiptoeing since 2012, and it prepared me for six years later when my mom died. Since then I have gradually found ways to keep growing into my name. I thought this blog would be “it” for my “job” but it hasn’t been flowing so well mostly because I’ve been chasing instead of allowing.

I have a lot of fun for free in social media on my Facebook page and its private group, Tacos and Tiaras Tribe. This group started as just me inviting my friends, then some of them invited their friends, and recently we’ve been joined by new members who have no mutual friends. That’s how light and laughter work.

So yeah, all that said… this is why very little changed for me when we received stay-at-home orders. I’ve been working from home since September 2019. And many others are finding themselves in the same boat of a change to their income. The main difference is I am unable to draw unemployment, but as I’ve been doing these past months, I do the work to answer my call to serve others and the universe has my back.

Just as I’ve thrown all the free stuff out there, if you have free advice or spare change haha, please get in touch with me. Please do not view this as a sales opportunity. I’m just holding up my end with the universe’s promise that it’s not happening to me, it’s happening for me… so that I can be here for you. A light for you.

Seeing that we’ve reached the end of the line with this post, I appreciate your support in being a reader. I am grateful to you for your time.

Luceat lux vestra.