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Mindfulness

An Impromptu Post About Time and Timing

Beginnings, Change, Divine Orchestration, Gratitude, Hope, In Media Res, Intuition, Kindness, Luceat Lux Vestra, Mindfulness, Perspective, Sacred Rebel

Time is such a weird thing with how it can both drag and fly at the same time, but I guess it’s a good thing that the saying is, ‘Time flies when you’re having fun.'”

– Me, Brain Dump: Thanks, Mommy

It’s been two years since I left the “norm” of having one full-time traditional job. I would not have remembered that if it hadn’t been for Facebook memories reminding me! I was already working on a new blog post for the upcoming second birthday of Tacos and Tiaras, and today (Sunday, 5 September) I got enough nudges to write a quick blog post about time and timing.

Here’s how some of my day went:

  • I was visiting a YouTube channel and leaving a comment on a video, but I decided to delete the last part I wrote about my mom.
  • About the same time that I posted the comment, I received a notification from Messenger, and it was Christine, asking me how I’m doing. I asked her if she got a nudge from my mom to check on me because of the timing. Christine was able to help me today, which also brought my awareness to some other items of notable timing (see bullet below). We exchanged messages throughout the day, sometimes instantly back and forth, and today we noticed angel time at 11:11, 3:33, 4:44, and 5:55.
  • Even with journaling and daily gratitude and setting intentions, I still experience some anxiety and stress if I look too far ahead. Christine was able to ask me questions —- Christine and I are actually messaging now…. and I have to get back to this post.
  • I’m back!!! And that little “exercise” that pulled me away from writing this post will be another blog post on another day because I’m still processing what happened. Rest assured, I received the guidance I needed for feeling less anxious and stressed.

I started this post on Sunday, but now it’s Monday, 6 September… I no longer have whatever was flowing in those bullets, so here’s where Leenie Brain and Heart are now.

Time and timing.

What I arrived at is that when we trust and believe that everything happens FOR us, we can feel less anxiety and stress.

When we combine that with allowing positive perspectives instead of negative ones as well as understanding that each of us is on our own unique timeline, we create better experiences.

When we trust and believe that we will always be supported when our hearts are grateful and kind, we open a flow of abundance that continuously provides more things for which to be grateful. This has been key in manifesting my intentions. And for that I feel grateful.

The reality is these things may never eliminate potential stressors or low-vibe experiences, but we can create our own peace and confidence that we need on our journey. And the peaceful, confident heart knows no boundaries.

I think the short story about where I was yesterday with writing this post is that a year ago, I thought I was supposed to be writing blog posts to shine my light and help others have a better day. Since last year, I flowed into posting music and humor videos, and not only did it feel more natural, but I became able to post DAILY new content and reach more people with videos than blog posts.

I didn’t choose the timing. In some ways I didn’t choose the time I put into creating content. I allowed a flow that I forgot existed.

I had been feeling down about how it’s been two years and “things” weren’t what I envisioned or expected, but timing worked out – it happens to be a new moon. I had started working on a “rebranding” a few weeks ago and had a breakthrough over the weekend. And here we are, still flowing… and becoming…

…and I already feel grateful for what is on its way to me now even if it’s not in my sights yet. It will be.

It will be.

Luceat lux vestra.

Let It Be: Allowing Happiness

Beginnings, Divine Orchestration, Gratitude, Happiness, Hope, Intuition, Kindness, Love, Mindfulness, Uncategorized

A secret to happiness is letting every situation be what it is instead of what you think it should be.”

– uncredited
Mommy, many years before she became a wife and mother

Dear Mommy,

I don’t even know where to begin, except to say, I feel happy. And grateful. And sooooo blessed. 💜🕯💜

I know I can still talk to you, but it’s not the same without hearing your voice or getting a hug from you. We used to talk to each other a lot when I was sixteen, the year I felt like a whole new world opened for me. I remember one of our conversations when I was venting to you then asking for guidance, and you said, “You lead too much with your heart.” So I tried to find balance with heart and mind.

Sometimes I am still trying to balance my heart and my head, and I finally get what you said. Leading with my heart may be more compassion, empathy, kindness, or love, so you were suggesting that I think more… which could lead to overthinking… which is also out of balance.

The one thing that doesn’t fail unless I ignore it is my gut.

Intuition.

I don’t remember talking to you very much about intuition, but often when I called you on the phone, you’d answer it, hear my voice, and greet me, “I knew it was you!” I wish I had learned to trust my intuition sooner, but at least I get it now.

Thinking and overthinking may lead to unnecessary unhappiness when we tell ourselves things like “It shouldn’t be like this” or “It should go like this”. I feel certain everyone has times when they think like that. But I definitely found more happiness and being all-zen-and-shit when I learned to let it be. It is what it is. Mindfully in the present… deciding what action to take that would influence a desired outcome or better future.

I know you always wanted what most mothers want for their kids – to experience no pains or difficulties – but you know me. Stubborn. Wanting to blaze my own path. Not wanting to be told what to do.

I look back and realize maybe that was my way of not wanting to fail or feel like I wasn’t enough. If I’m doing my own thing or creating my own of anything, then I am enough.

I remember feeling so skeptical about your experiences being any kind of model for me to strive to follow. You’re you. I’m me. You pursued music. You performed. You taught. You changed careers. You waited until your 30s to get married… and you got married within two weeks of meeting Daddy. You stayed home to raise kids then returned to work a job, not a career. I never asked you if any of it was intentional. Maybe on some level I knew it didn’t matter if any of those bits and pieces were initially out of alignment because in the end. you were happy.

Sometimes when I dream at night, you’re in my dreams but I never see you. In my dreams I know you’re there, but you’re out of sight… just around a corner. Reality feels the same.

I mentioned in Everything Is Temporary, But Love Never Dies, that I’ve gotten signs and nudges that could only be your presence or involvement. You’re still wanting me to have the best… thank you. Everything and everyone on my path that are aligned with me, my authentic self… thank you for leading me home to my dreams. Thank you for letting it be and letting me arrive at where I am now with a spiritual life.

Mommy, I count my blessings gratefully every morning and every night and I feel happy for what I have and everything that’s on its way but has not yet arrived. So much gratitude. I feel certain that joy and gratitude (and the courage to set specific intentions for what I want) have led to my dreams coming to life. Thank you for the handpicked gift. Perfection. And what is heaven sent will never be taken for granted.

Love, Me

Luceat lux vestra.