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Prayer and Meditation

The Power of Mad-About-You Love

Divine Orchestration, Friendship, Gratitude, Happiness, Hope, Love, Luceat Lux Vestra, Marriage, Prayer and Meditation, Reflection

I’m mad about you; you’re mad about me, babe. Couple of fools run wild, aren’t we?”

– Mad About You, performed by Belinda Carlisle, written by Paula Jean Brown, James Whelan and Mitchel Young Evans, produced by Michael Lloyd
Dinner with Dr. Pepper. He took a picture because he said I looked beautiful. “Have I told you yet today how beautiful you are?”

A little more than three months ago, I woke up and felt like that day would be magical. I had to share it: Magic Moments: The Princess of Spring. Every day since then, I have felt grateful for the ways I recognize the alignment and new clarity in my life. I feel grateful for every affirmation, especially the ones from Dr. Pepper, that I am, in fact, The Princess of Spring.

Dear Mommy,

Yes, this was an overdue blog post / letter to you. I’m always picking up on nudges/reminders to tell a story but let it slide when it feels like I’m chasing what to write instead of allowing it to flow. Today I really couldn’t let the nudge go without saying/sharing. I recognize the pattern of cause and effect with some of the things I’ve learned, and ain’t that a lesson in learning consistency too?

The video of you and Daddy now has more than 1,700 views. Maybe more people than I imagine truly wish to know “the secret to a long marriage”. And it makes sense to me more and more every day that you responded, “There is no secret if you really think about it.” When you and others say, “You just know…” in reference to “the one”, I finally understand that. You. Just. Know.

Dr. Pepper inadvertently took a video when he meant to take a picture (the picture for this blog post). It reminded me of the video of you and Daddy.

And Mommy, YOU have made your presence known in making sure that Dr. Pepper and I woke up to love. He and I express our gratitude daily, knowing that his prayers were answered by God and the angels and my intentions manifested through the Higher Power. All of you heard our hearts and delivered more than either of us asked for, but upon receiving, we realized how much those extra qualities meant to us. Thank you.

You always wanted me to go back to church, and while at this moment I cannot promise it, I can say that Dr. Pepper and I are on this journey together. He and I have been working on praying together even if my “prayers” aren’t specifically to God. I told him about that quote I saw when I started a new job and I told you about it: “If God leads you to it, He will see you through it.” Right now at least we recognize that something Divine has been working for us and that our mission and purpose as individuals is coming together for our mission and purpose as a couple. We’re meant to SHINE together and share love, hope, and healing. We know that our daily gratitude and service to the Divine will always yield the support and guidance that we need as a couple.

Mommy, he inspires me so… I appreciate all of the positive feedback about my music videos that aren’t about my playing or singing but about my mission as a lightworker. Thank you for raising me with a musical life… that’s been my vehicle for trying to help others smile or laugh… letting my light shine through music. Dr. Pepper inspires me, supports me, encourages me, and loves me. He saw The Princess of Spring in me and wants me to keep shining. He is the one partner who has never asked me to dim myself to fit in, but Dr. Pepper is so enthusiastic about me staying authentically me.

This week I published Mad About You for my Monday/MCM music because it’s so fitting for Dr. Pepper. On YouTube, it currently has 529 views! You know I felt ridiculously elated when I saw BELINDA CARLISLE liked and commented on the post on Instagram! The power of mad-about-you love truly makes everything possible. And I’ve really learned to let go of the notion of perfection. Some things cannot wait, and some things do not need to be “perfect” in order to convey a message or share the energy.

I know that nobody could miss you more than Daddy does. I don’t know how it feels to lose the love of your life, your best friend of more than fifty years… how it feels to live where life is just breathing in and out and waiting, hoping that your faith in an afterlife will reunite you and your beloved on another plane of existence…

And I remember all the times that you told me what you hoped for me and how you were so blessed with a good man to be your husband and the father of your children. Maybe I didn’t get it while you were alive, but I get it now. And I know that once I realized and believed what I am worthy of and deserve and asked for, you made sure I would receive him, the man you always hoped I would fall in love with and he with me. And yeah, we’re mad about each other.

Thank you, Mommy. I miss you most when I want to pick up the phone to tell you these things, but I also get it, why it’s this way. Now. Feeling called type it out here makes it possible to share with others who need to hear this to fulfill whatever it is they need most.

Love,
Me

Luceat lux vestra.

Allowing Everyday Magic from Your Heart

Beginnings, Confessions, Divine Orchestration, Gratitude, Happiness, Hope, In Media Res, Kindness, Love, Luceat Lux Vestra, Mindfulness, Music, Perspective, Prayer and Meditation, Reflection, Sacred Rebel, Warrior Woman Wednesday

One day it just clicks. You realize what’s important and what isn’t. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realize how far you’ve come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that you would never recover. And you smile. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you’ve fought to become.”

– tinybuddha.com
My backyard today, 21 April 2021

I have to begin this post with gratitude. I feel grateful for this moment in which I feel like I am fiiiiiiiiinally able to write another post. I arrived at a point in today where I could at least START typing…

I feel grateful that I arrived at a point in my life where I am less likely to stress myself out because something, like writing a new blog post, didn’t occur in the timeframe that I thought I would. I have seen so many times how when I allow it to flow, all of the bits and pieces, including ones I didn’t know would be part of it, arrive and then I am ready to tackle the task or mission.

Today was exactly that. I was talking on the phone this morning while I sat on the patio, and as I listened to kind and loving words being spoken, a male American Goldfinch came up to the feeders. He was the first I’ve seen in months, and his presence felt like a nudge. I couldn’t remember what symbolism is associated with the goldfinch, so I searched my blog. I mentioned the goldfinch in four posts:

  • The Goldfinch Speaks, 13 May 2020 – This one did not mention symbolism, but one paragraph stood out like a reminder that I needed to see because of how I could say the same thing about my past week:

    “I laughed and asked, ‘Why is everything a fucking metaphor?’ Seriously. My week has been one amazing thing after another when I am allowing them to come to me and happen instead of trying to make them arrive on what I think their timeline should be.“

    Another beautiful reminder from the same post: “Every time I consciously and earnestly say, ‘Thank you’ I receive more for which to be thankful.”
  • Meditating with the Birds, 17 May 2020 – Reading this post today brought to mind something else. My post suggests that mindfulness and being fully engaged in the present moment can be achieved in different activities besides typical meditation in order to feel grounded; however, I feel some of my greatest peace (that launches more gratitude) in ordinary moments when I realize that I had been completely focused and not for the purpose of grounding.

    The post also emphasizes having consistency and patience, especially when it comes to allowing arrivals. I only have control over my actions and thoughts and what I can do to invite an arrival, and from there, I have to be patient and allow.
  • Come As You Are, 9 June 2020 – I loved reading this and realizing how much unfolded since then: “My life has become magical, metaphorical, and mystical, and as the oriole reminded me, much of it comes from reconnecting with and continuing to heal my inner child. I’ve carried forward all of the things that brought me joy as a child. After many life and soul-journey lessons, some that made it easy for me to lose my way from my path, I’ve been working on learning, healing, and creating my future as I’ve always dreamed it.” Oh, if I knew then what I would experience this past week! 🙂

    Come As You Are focuses on bringing our authentic self to all things, and at that time I mentioned working for change: “IF you read my blog regularly, then you know my calling is a storyteller, lightworker, healer, sacred rebel, priestess… Therefore, my purpose is to stay with the bigger picture so that it helps you to be who you are meant to be and come as you are to working for change.”

    Being your authentic self is also key in another matter – aligning all the people, tools, and experiences that help us with our life purpose and mission. And also a final reminder from the post: ALWAYS BE KIND.
  • Timing: Arrival, Advent, It’s All Coming Back to Me, and I’m Still On My Way, 29 Nov 2020 – This post opens with the quote, “It’s a bizarre but wonderful feeling, to arrive dead center of a target you didn’t even know you were aiming for.” – Lois McMaster Bujold. In this post, I have a list of things that I didn’t see coming in the future, but they were all great things that happened FOR me and they arrived when I would truly appreciate and treasure their value.

    This post feels connected to my most recent posts, Magic Moments: The Princess of Spring and Inviting and Allowing Magic Moments. Only six days ago I used the Paulo Coelho quote, “We have to listen to the child we once were, the child who still exists inside us. That child understands magic moments.” Two days ago I wrote my own quote, “Magic is in the heart of the believer.” The image on the post affirms, “I allow life to flow freely through me. I am open to experience this moment as it is.”

One more thing to bring forward from the penultimate post: “The Princess of Spring. Optimistic, Enthusiastic, Creative, Energetic. It’s time to go after your dreams. Do something that expands your horizons. Let your creativity take flight.” – Radleigh Valentine, Fairy Tarot. And my favorite part from the guidebook, “She exhibits an almost childlike exuberance for life that will have you smiling.” Agaaaaaaain, if I knew weeks ago how this message would play out over and over, especially this past week, I still might not have believed what was coming.

With all of that in mind…

In the past couple of weeks, but mostly since last Thursday, the day that I woke up and felt like it was going to be a magical day, I feel absolutely certain it was. Whether you want to call it praying or setting intentions to manifest, I have been receiving everything I dared to ask for from the universe. I am manifesting a life of abundance. Needs are met. Wants are few. I am living a happy, fulfilling, purpose-driven life.

Every bit of work I’ve done in the last decade to improve my mindset to invite abundance is paying off now. The keys? Consistency and patience in: living in constant gratitude, healing from past experiences that kept me anchored in the past and blocked energy flows, releasing fears or negative thought patterns that stemmed from someone else’s mindset… those are the first three things that come to mind, but I know it’s not just those… ALLOWING INSTEAD OF CHASING… gaaaahhhhh that was a big one! (That’s what she said! haha)

Those all are a part of being able to LIVE AUTHENTICALLY – hear what your soul is calling you to do as your life purpose and live it! Once I allowed my creations (blog posts, videos, images) to flow naturally in whatever way I felt they should be rather than what I thought others want or trying to follow a formula/model, I began creating my own unique work and building a following of social media friends who enjoy and appreciate what seems to be “The Princess of Spring” coming out of my creations.

I’ll affirm again in the same words I used in a previous post, my light shines brightest when I’m not trying to shine but am simply being… living… being me… interacting with others… doing my own thing…

… and I love how I feel from finding out through comments and interactions that what brings light and healing to others is so simple.

My laugh and my smile.

And those were never in what I thought was important for fulfilling my purpose and mission! Laughing and smiling… two of the most natural actions that I could do since I was a baby! I mentioned it before in LAUGHING: It’s Funnier When Someone Snorts or Pees Just a Little.

Things are falling into place and my mission keeps becoming clearer to me. And I feel grateful to everyone I’ve met and have yet to meet who in some way contribute to my fulfillment of my mission. I feel grateful that by shining their light, several helped me to get where I am especially by empowering me to step up and begin creating and posting content whether it was this blog site or one of my social media accounts.

I found the courage to take the first step… the second step… baby steps… LEAPS… regular steps… crawling at times… but always moving forward. I answered what I thought was my calling, but every success or failure keeps clarifying my true purpose as a healer and lightworker… a warrior woman… a priestess… a sacred rebel. And all of my gratitude invites more of what and who I need to keep doing my part to raise the vibration, spread LOVE, and heal the world.

I have a journal in which I kept notes from some of my card pulls. The reminders I wrote to myself on the title page come from Rebecca Campbell’s Work Your Light oracle cards:

“Warrior Woman. Have you answered your deepest calling?”

“Priestess. How are you being called to step up and lead? Let your life be your message. A leader has the courage to go first and shine a light on the path.”

Luceat lux vestra.